How life goes on...

    Mujhe ache se yaad h, last year Oct me meri Go Air me jab training lagi thi mei bhot khush tha, finally kuch to huwa, and side by side meine startup bhi start kar liya tha. Sari savings laga di thi. N unlimately ab tak ka sbse bada scam huwa mere sath. Bank acount khalli aur zingadi ouse b zada khali. Paiso ka phir bhi itna bura nahi laga, par startup k chakar me meine apni training bhi chor di, jo thoda sa career start hone laga tha wo b reh gaya, aur sath k dosto ne jab lose hone pe sath chora wo alag. Satnam, sandeep, phyco, sab ko apne sath rakha, bina kisi condition aur profit me share dene k promise se, aur na hi onse bina kisi investment k. S ocha tha mei n settle hoiuga to sab bhai jaise h ais , sabko sath me rakhuga sab settle hojaiyge aur dost h to bharosa abhi rahega n kam karne me ma zz a b hi rahe ga. Agar sach me profit hota to sabne kuch na kuch kam kiya sab apna share haq se mangte, par jab lose ho gaya, mere sare pai s e dub gaiy, e m...

………… .. Muje pata hai, t u call pe kabhi baat nahi karti aur mene kabhi expect bhi nhi kiya, thik hai subka apna apna hota hai. Ek din tune suddenly mujhe call kiya yahi diwali k time pe, tab mein bahar tha aur bilkul bhi expected nahi tha, specially tujhse, haha… aur jab humne baat ki than asusual tere pas hi hello k ilava bolne ko kuch nahi tha, aur mujhe samajh a reha tha ki ab soch rahi hogi ab age aur kya baat karu. Par acha laga. Choti choti bate kitni achi lag jati hai kabhi kabhi. Wapis aate huwe subha train me, tune mujhe pucha phir pucha tha ki “tuje mujhse pyar to nahi ho gaya”. Mujhe javab pata tha Radhika, but ousk badle mein tujhse pucha “ ki kahi tujhe to mujhse pyar nahi ho gaya?’ tune abhi koi javab nahi diya, bs itna bola tune ki “ kI mukul kuch hai to abi bol de, Ye waqt fir nahi aiga,” age bhi bat hoi thi bar kya bolna and Radhika, is waqt mujhe ache se pata tha meri kya aukat h isiliye meine tere pehle sawal ka jawab nahi de paya tha yar. Aur sach me w...

     Ye to hamesha se pata tha, ki yahi hona hai, pehli bar to hai nahi. P ar is baar itna bura q lag reha h yar . Ab tk to adat si ho jani chahiye thi shayad ho b gai h, aur hamari ous rat ki baat k bad mein mentally prepared abi tha is baar , to itna farak nahi pdna chahiye tha, zindgi me to aisa hota hi rehta hai. fir abhi muje bura lag reha hai . Sub aise khatam hona tha kya.       Hamari ki soch b kitni age tak chali jati h. Shayad akelepan ne aisa kar diya h. Koi family nahi, ek b aisa nahi jo kabi ek bar bs aise hi phone kr k ek br puch le ki kaisa h, kya kar reha hai. Kissi se koi bat nahi, bina kaam k koi nahi puchta ab . Family b nahi rahi jo ghar chala jaya karu. Ous din, acha lag reha tha   tha sath sath me , bs yahi galati ho gai shayd. Jab muje ache se pata tha ki jo chiz muj he ache lagti h, kuch b acha hota h, wo mujhse waise hi door ho jata h, or w ahi ho reha hai . Mei  hamare bich chize badalte huwe ...

Wednesday Sep 25 th , 2019 Kal, ek din k liye mein apne ghar aya tha. Daily raat to mein 8 PM se almost subha 3-4 AM tak kaam karta tha, bat kal mera man nahi tha. Bahar khana khane k bad, itna drive karne k bad mein bohot thak gaya tha, or sone chala gaya jaldo socha ki 1 hr sone k bad kaam karuga. Daliy ki adat h jagne ki, itni jaldi mei kabi sota nahi, layt to gaya par fir nind nahi aa rahi thi ache se. aise hi layta reha, kachi kachi nind aane lagi. Kai baar jb muje nind nahi aa rahi hoti, subha kaam karne k bad ya waise hi layta hota hu kabi, yaa jab kabi akela hota hu man karta h kisi se baat karne ka, bohot akela sa lagta h, to kai baar khud se hi bate karne lagta hu. Aise hi kuch b, bachpan ki yaadein, ajkl ki kam ki bare me, agar kaam nahi chal reha to kya galti ho rahi h khud se hi bate kr k discuss karlena, ya fir kabi khud se hi hasi majak karlena. Pagal nahi huwa hu mein. Pata ni baki logo k sath aisa hota h ya nahi. Par thik h muje thik lagta h kabi k...