How life goes on...

Wednesday Sep 25 th , 2019 Kal, ek din k liye mein apne ghar aya tha. Daily raat to mein 8 PM se almost subha 3-4 AM tak kaam karta tha, bat kal mera man nahi tha. Bahar khana khane k bad, itna drive karne k bad mein bohot thak gaya tha, or sone chala gaya jaldo socha ki 1 hr sone k bad kaam karuga. Daliy ki adat h jagne ki, itni jaldi mei kabi sota nahi, layt to gaya par fir nind nahi aa rahi thi ache se. aise hi layta reha, kachi kachi nind aane lagi. Kai baar jb muje nind nahi aa rahi hoti, subha kaam karne k bad ya waise hi layta hota hu kabi, yaa jab kabi akela hota hu man karta h kisi se baat karne ka, bohot akela sa lagta h, to kai baar khud se hi bate karne lagta hu. Aise hi kuch b, bachpan ki yaadein, ajkl ki kam ki bare me, agar kaam nahi chal reha to kya galti ho rahi h khud se hi bate kr k discuss karlena, ya fir kabi khud se hi hasi majak karlena. Pagal nahi huwa hu mein. Pata ni baki logo k sath aisa hota h ya nahi. Par thik h muje thik lagta h kabi k...

Mein bohot time se akela reh reha hu, or kai bar is chiz k bare me sochta hu. Meine apni life ka acha khasa time waste kr diya, bohot si chize chordi, kai chorni padi ya chut gai. Waqt Waqt Ki Baat h bs. Ek din m ein apne ghar me baythat hamesha ki tarah apni laptop pe kam kr reha tha bed pe bayth k. Dim yellow light, maroon bedsheet, aise hi chalta TV. Mera ek dost S andeep b mere sath bayth k apne laptop pe kam kr reha tha, or pichle ek do din se mere hi sath mere ghr pe reh reha tha. Wise to mein akela hi reahta h u , pr ek do din se S andeep mere sath tha aise hi bs kam krne k silsile me . Hum aram se kam ka rahe the, or wo kabi yeha to kabi waha, sari bedsheet kharb kr di, mei daykh reha tha par kuch bola nahi, ki koi nahi. Fir mein man kaam me lagaya to muje laga ki hath me kuch chip chip sa lag reha h to mei pani se dhone gaya to daykha, nalke teda huwa pada h or pani leak h oo reha h or muje t hoda gussa aya, to meine S andeep se pucha aise tune kiya. To ousne j...